things are gonna change now for the better.

If you ever want to know me, ask me. I most likely will deny your friendship, even if we've known each other forever, I'm sick of people. I'm disgusted with the human race and everything we've done. I'm at that point in my life where everyone's mistakes are my burden. I'm also beggining to realize that I have to live for tomorrow, not today. I'm looking forward to the future. Looking forward to see what happens with the world, my friends, my family, myself. I'm not expecting anything, I'm just hoping that everything gets better. Do you understand? Do you seriously really understand that everything you say and do I take with me and keep thinking about forever. I never forget anything anyone does to me, or anything that effects me. And somehow it's all coming back to haunt me. I'm not saying I hate my friends. I'm saying I'm disappointed with the choices I made in some of my friends. I clearly need to wise up and not trust so easily. I wear my heart on my sleeve and I hand out trust like it's a phone number. I've gotten better. But my walls are thick so when it's time to actually need to trust, it's going to screw me over. I'm a tough person to figure out. Some say "annoying." I just want someone to figure me out. I'd say I've got a couple people to. I'm just so sick of people wanting to just use me for their personal convience. WHAT ABOUT MY PERSONAL CONVIENCE?! I need your help sometimes too. I need people to listen and actually CARE. Therefore, I need people who know me. My mom doesn't even know half of my story. I'm just upset about how everyone has let me down and the world too. I'm ready for this change.

I'm ready.