i'm not a lot, but you can have all of me.

so i've been talking to boys lately. i've found good ones. but they're all still....meh. none of them have potential or want potential i guess.

i have been told i'm too selfish. but if i had someone else to think about all of the time, it'd be different. i just want someone to feel good with. someone to trust completely someone to hold me and well...everything. it's not really that hard. i'm just looking for anyone who wants me for me. i'm not changing anything. i sleep a lot. i'm pretty lazy. i eat more food than most men. i burp. i like scratch off tickets. i hate beef, but love chicken. i'm complicated, but not that hard to talk to and understand.

i'm begining to see im not going to have anything with the money i have and the schooling i'm paying for. i'm getting nothing for money except my materialistic pleasure and that can only go so far. but i'm still doing good. because i'm healthy, and i'm happy with myself. it's not like i'm breaking down inside right now or have huge insecurities. the one i do is about my laugh but that's because its soooo loud and obnoxious ahhaha. we all know it.

i'm so tired. melinda and i had fazoli's i'm her parachute packer? sounds perverted huh? hahah. we're going to end up adopting kids together from africa. and making them be friends and shit. hahah. we're amazing.

i'm going to bed. i had a good day. i might have a job soon. good thing i know people.