okay so here's life...
boys;; i'm failing miserably. i'm being my normal hardknock self. no one will get passed if i dont let them. i don't want to learn to trust them. they all hurt me anyways, why would i want to? why would i want them to get to see me? i mean, i love myself, why can't they. that's what i don't get. people just don't get how to get through. and so they think i'm so cold hearted. but really, i'm not. so basically i push and push so i don't have to trust. i hate boys. i've only been heartbroken once because of erik. and i hate him...honestly HATE! i don't trust anyone. ever. i've never had a reason to. other than ashlee harley, she's not a boy though.
friends;; same as above. they're never there when I NEED THEM!!! i'm giving up on them. i'm sick of them. they're failures at their jobs. i could careless if i leave them. other than again, ashlee and probably alise, but she's leaving too, so we'll end up talking all the time.
family;; they're being jerks. my mom is telling me i can't choice my college because of money? not because it has any impact on my FUTURE OR ANYTHING?!?! what a bitch. i mean okay lets seriously think about it....retard. i hate her. she's a biiiiiitch....i'm old enough to know better. and what i want. and i have NEVER wanted to go to iupui or stay here. and now i have the best opportunity ever and she's trying to take it away from me.
school;; i was accepted to penn state university. yes. THE penn state. and i'm so excited. i didn't even hear from them until now. i applied in november. they have meteorology. not geology....METEOROLOGY B.S. i don't care about money. i'll end up making back 2 times more in one year of working from my doctorate. i'm pretty impressed at myself. i'm smart. I AM good at this. I can make it on my own. I don't need anyone. i think i'll be fine without boys, friends or family. well i'll need ashlee and alise. but thats a given.
anberlin's new cd is so amazing. i am in awe. you just have to buy it to know what i mean. it's so....overpowering.
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